{What a start}

Its already January 20th. The fact that February is fast approaching makes me nervous that this year will turn out just like every other year. A list of changes, wants, etc. that never really become anything. I really want this year to be different. I want to “figure it all out”. LOL, I know I know that's pretty grandiose of me. But hey might as well shoot high.

{This is on repeat in my head}

{Beauty Inspiration}

Crystal Renn

{One Ingredient Ice Cream}

I tried this last night when my roommate mentioned it. I had a few overly ripe bananas to use so I figured why not. and you know what, it turned out a lot better than I expected. I was really surpised how the whipped banannas really tasted like vanilla ice cream. You should give it a try some time.

• Peel your bananas first.
• Cut them into small pieces.
• Freeze for just 1-2 hours on a plate.
• Blend, blend, blend - scraping down the bowl when they stick.
• Enjoy the magic moment when they turn into ice cream!

You can find a better step by step recipe with photos here.

{Fear}

Everyone has something they they are scared of. Some people are really held back by their fear whether it may be a fear of heights or water or some creepy little insect. Mine have never been those types of fears. I used to have a big fear of what I considered to be failure, but I think that was just my young inexperienced mind at work. As I've grown up and gained new experiences I try to look back at what I think I've learned. This morning I started to think about what I am afraid of. I came to the conclusion that at this stage in my life I seem to be in fear of two things 1. That I will die with regrets (wont live my life to its fullest) and 2. That I will never experience the type of love that you read about and hear about. Although I like to think I aspire to live my life to its fullest- my laziness gets in the way A LOT. Love, well that's just something that I'm going to have to wait and see about. I'm hopeful though.

{Resolutions}

I know a lot of people don't like to make new year resolutions. But I really do, it allows you to reevaluate what you feel you need to improve on and what you possibly failed on last year. Its always nice to meet a resolution and to just have anything you feel you need to work on written down. So here it goes.

1. Lose 20 lbs. (I obviously would like to lose more but baby steps)
2. Be neater/ learn to pick after myself before it begins to look like a major disaster.
3. Go camping at least 3 times this year.
4. Go on another overseas trip.
5. Take my mom on a nice trip.
6. Read more.
7. Write more.
8. Go on dates/find love.
9. Study for the GRE.
10. Try not to be so damn lazy, lol.

{2010}

Its a whole new year, a whole new decade. I would like to think that this past decade was a good one. I feel like I grew a lot as a person. I did a lot of things that Ive always wanted to do such as graduate from college, move to NYC, live on my own and travel to Europe. I'm on my own and I'm really proud about that. I feel that a lot of the emotional problems that used to hold me back from a good life in the past are finally behind me. I feel like I can process things better and can handle stressful situations in a more constructive way. I look forward to this new year and cant wait to see what life has to offer me. I hope that I can always remember that obstacles are never as bad as they really seem and that everything can be overcome. I hope to find love and to laugh a lot. I hope to travel and experience new things every day. I hope to soon reach my "happy weight". I want to be happy. I hope everyone had a great New Years and for those that had a rough time this year I wish for you all the best in the new year.